Counting down! 5 days! Super fast!

There are still loads of things not completed.. Work n bxb.. Hmm.. But I am accepting that this week or rather kindly reminded by dad that only 5 days.. Haha.. This 5 days will b very busy n rushing to aim to complete so that I can have a carefree holidays! For the Hols I will Jia you!! :)

Everything looks hard to attain but not when I take them step by step :) last week I've done it so the same goes for this 5 days! Hahah..

Had fun n satisfaction yesterday during 爱德福音-当我们同在一起.. Seen the potential of our dear BYs in leading groups.. Good job! There are definitely rooms for improvement.. But at least we took the step.. :) n we are gonna take more steps! :)

Having time off half day is really Siok! But I realized my mind is still at work.. Worrying if my patients will b seen, will there be enough manpower to cover my ward? Haha.. See.. I think I really have to learn to 放下.. If not I will definitely not get used to work life n be contented n rested.. Haha.. Starting to learn though.. Yeah!

Seriously! This blog has been frozen! Haha.. Time for thawing! :)

Time really flies and does not wait.. Back from my 1 year study in melbourne.. Worked as a full time OT for 4 months! How unreal these had been during the years of study.. Haha.. I still can't believe it now when I had the time to settle my thoughts!

I guessed one can never lay down when ur potential had been unleashed.. Y waste? Jus have to keep my goals in mind and constantly keep track of my path.. My mental well being..

What is it for that I am working for? My big picture that I am working for.. Though abstract and may sound unattainable.. But no one knows till I make the effort to bring myself closer to the finishing line!

Only MYself can fulfill MY dreams! No effort no gain, dear! :)

Thoughts

9 weeks only...too short..

Sadness and excitedness surged in me.

Sadness as I can't bear to part with my dear class and friends and lecturers, sad to say goodbye to the dear school days of carefreeness though the hardwork, sad to say goodbye...

Excited to meet the new world (though with a mixture of fear), excited of the topics ahead, excited of the reflections and inspiring moments ahead to come, excited..

My mind had seemed to turn into a borderless sea with countless boats of thoughts sailing through ever since the shock of my life. They are good reflections and awareness. I guessed I would choose to count my lucky stars that I had had this experience to do some awakening in me.

I had taken to being more aware of my own well being and the tinny winny parts of me. I realised I am a bag of lazy bones who is a workaholic. One that does not really listen to the calls of the physical needs at times and focused too much on mind over body. However, I also realised that is also my strength. My strength to positive self talk and conquer self. This made me realise the importance of balance in life. Though it is troublesome and tiring to take note of both sides of the balance, it is indeed essential for long term functional status. The experiences of seniors, the scientific knowledge and the people around me had given me sufficient evidence for the need to stay healthy for work efficiency. Hence, I am certainly going to abide by that rule of thumb.

Another thing that I realise is my organisation. Through the years, my physical organisation had deteriorated. I had struggled a lot to finally cleared most of my things (oops..my table is still a little messy..haha). My administrative organisation had been worst. With the increased roles and expanding scopes, it had exceeded my memory capacity, which I accounted for my short term memory. It is time to organise myself. Not only for the sake of me, but for the people around me. It is only then that I can ensure that I can cope and expand the extent of my outreach to others and to extend my heart to all in need.

Many a times, my brain switches to the 'blur' mode and chooses to blank out. This, I know, becomes vividly clear to me tonight that I have the power to choose not to. I have to be in CONTROL of my life! If I don't, who will? No one is going to be my cloud forever, following and chauffering me around. It is time to be independent. Time for the tinny winny XUAN to meet the world...

Ah Yee 一家

 

haha.. xiao yee whole family really came to stay with Ah ma le..lol..they getting condo soon..but in the time being come to stay at ah ma's house and i get to see the 2 little 'xiao gua', my cousins..hahha...Royce bout 13 months den Rachel bout 4 yrs ba..hee..both very angelic..haha...

however during outings with ah yee and the 2 kids, have to be rather careful..haha..think all children are lik dat..hee..have to carry them almost all the time..make sure they dun anyhow take stuff from the shop..make sure they are always out of danger...make them smile..keep them happy...teach them the different things around along the way to make full use of their learning capacity..haha...but i guess it's all FUN when u look back..haha...

last night went to ah ma house..btw my ah ma stay oni a few storeys apart from me..haha..Royce is starting to warm up to me..remembering who i am from the start..think he likes my left shoulder..haha...whenever i carry him at times that he's not so active he will straight away place his head on my shoulder..haha..so sweet..when he's bout 8 months, i still rem i used to go out with him and many times he fell asleep on my shoulder..there was once i walked ard TAKA with him asleep...haha..it's such a cosy feeling..though have to bear with a weight..hee..

 

haha..this was taken long time ago..think near end of last year ba..haha..motherly looking? lol..

 

ooh..too off le..back to last night..when my mom said that we gonna leave and i walked to the door..Royce quickly ran to me and threw his bottle of water onto the ground and raised his hands to signal 'baobao'..haha..tat's so sweet and heart throbbing...hahah..felt so touched :p

 

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WOOHOO!!!

exams are finally over!! haha..right after exams went straight to movie..hee..super good..even the credits showed wonderful illustrations...the movie...

                                    

the same main characters..hahah..tis time a lot of focus is on the culture of China..but it still has the esscence of the Mummy..juz that tis time round the Mummy has changed..hee..in the movie there is tis Lin...i find that she's rather pretty in her ways..mayb her mysteriousness in the movie..but she juz look very Qing Xiu..

                                             

before we went in i wanted to treat the movie tickets but DL keep saying no..first time i see him hold his stand..haha..anyway we bickered which was rather funny den when HZ came we both laid down our reasons..me coz i juz finished my exams...DL coz he juz gt promoted..in the end HZ settle the thing by saying DL tickets, me drinks n popcorn...hahha...

when we exited the theatre, we saw 2 kids around 3 yrs old or less..at the capsule machines...they were there trying to poke at the holes alone...we were surprised as they look so small to be left alone..n other ppl who were there was also looking at the kids..den we realised that the mother was rather further away and round the corner..in the arcade...i was shocked..the oni thought that came to me was if those were my kids..i would never dare to let them off my sight...wat's more around a corner that i can't even see..scary....

 

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EXAMS!!

 

it's been a fight...hahah... but it's not over yet...today the last paper for the sem exams le...finally...but still one last exam on mon...BSM PRAC!!!

wish mi luck man...it's super tough coz i haven't hit the videos for revision of BSM yet...aargh!! haha..but it will still come la..so i guess later finish settle all the small matters den hav to revise le..if nt very taxing..haha..today went for the revision cls that turn out to be lik a per- Mob lookout into the room..lol...super stressing...the things that HB says..the way the qns will be phrased...but i guess if i'm consistent den shld b no prob ba...JIA YOU XY!! :p

for the past 2 weeks..been lik my eyes can nvr leave the bks...read n read...the papers are so close together..this week's papers..each some more consisting of 3 or 2 modules together...really make us hav to apply things all at the same time...i guess that's also one of the main reasons y i so admire competent OTs...esp those who have made the course...Pei Fu de Wu Ti Tou Di...haa...hope one day i will be one of them too...:p

mummy say i nvr drink water..haha..always lik dat de..my pimples will all pop out during exams..sometimes i even can't recognise myself when i look into the mirror...haiz..too heaty le...time to drink my tea...hee...

there are so many things i wanna do...always exams times den start to really look into my desires...lik a bit cannot lik dat ar...i seem to always tell myself that at these times...it feels lik i dun hav a life..ahhha...but i guess i more of a lazy plus quite easily contented person ba...hahah..juz spending time with my family..i can juz go out daily with them..den other times is immersing in my studies...

guess that may b y i kinda boring ba...cox i seldom go out...but i'm also someone who is realli keen on gg out with my friends too..ahhah..i luv spending time with them...fooling and crapping ard..lol...but i spend most of my times in my commitments la..enjoying...:p

 

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