TINNY WINNY XUAN

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2011-12-12T07:41:00.001+08:00

Counting down! 5 days! Super fast!

There are still loads of things not completed.. Work n bxb.. Hmm.. But I am accepting that this week or rather kindly reminded by dad that only 5 days.. Haha.. This 5 days will b very busy n rushing to aim to complete so that I can have a carefree holidays! For the Hols I will Jia you!! :)

Everything looks hard to attain but not when I take them step by step :) last week I've done it so the same goes for this 5 days! Hahah..

Had fun n satisfaction yesterday during 爱德福音-当我们同在一起.. Seen the potential of our dear BYs in leading groups.. Good job! There are definitely rooms for improvement.. But at least we took the step.. :) n we are gonna take more steps! :)

Yeah! Half day! Big Smile

2011-12-09T13:44:00.001+08:00

Having time off half day is really Siok! But I realized my mind is still at work.. Worrying if my patients will b seen, will there be enough manpower to cover my ward? Haha.. See.. I think I really have to learn to 放下.. If not I will definitely not get used to work life n be contented n rested.. Haha.. Starting to learn though.. Yeah!

Jia you!

2011-12-05T18:51:00.001+08:00

Seriously! This blog has been frozen! Haha.. Time for thawing! :)

Time really flies and does not wait.. Back from my 1 year study in melbourne.. Worked as a full time OT for 4 months! How unreal these had been during the years of study.. Haha.. I still can't believe it now when I had the time to settle my thoughts!

I guessed one can never lay down when ur potential had been unleashed.. Y waste? Jus have to keep my goals in mind and constantly keep track of my path.. My mental well being..

What is it for that I am working for? My big picture that I am working for.. Though abstract and may sound unattainable.. But no one knows till I make the effort to bring myself closer to the finishing line!

Only MYself can fulfill MY dreams! No effort no gain, dear! :)

2009-10-22T23:01:00.002+08:00

Thoughts

9 weeks only...too short..

Sadness and excitedness surged in me.

Sadness as I can't bear to part with my dear class and friends and lecturers, sad to say goodbye to the dear school days of carefreeness though the hardwork, sad to say goodbye...

Excited to meet the new world (though with a mixture of fear), excited of the topics ahead, excited of the reflections and inspiring moments ahead to come, excited..

My mind had seemed to turn into a borderless sea with countless boats of thoughts sailing through ever since the shock of my life. They are good reflections and awareness. I guessed I would choose to count my lucky stars that I had had this experience to do some awakening in me.

I had taken to being more aware of my own well being and the tinny winny parts of me. I realised I am a bag of lazy bones who is a workaholic. One that does not really listen to the calls of the physical needs at times and focused too much on mind over body. However, I also realised that is also my strength. My strength to positive self talk and conquer self. This made me realise the importance of balance in life. Though it is troublesome and tiring to take note of both sides of the balance, it is indeed essential for long term functional status. The experiences of seniors, the scientific knowledge and the people around me had given me sufficient evidence for the need to stay healthy for work efficiency. Hence, I am certainly going to abide by that rule of thumb.

Another thing that I realise is my organisation. Through the years, my physical organisation had deteriorated. I had struggled a lot to finally cleared most of my things (oops..my table is still a little messy..haha). My administrative organisation had been worst. With the increased roles and expanding scopes, it had exceeded my memory capacity, which I accounted for my short term memory. It is time to organise myself. Not only for the sake of me, but for the people around me. It is only then that I can ensure that I can cope and expand the extent of my outreach to others and to extend my heart to all in need.

Many a times, my brain switches to the 'blur' mode and chooses to blank out. This, I know, becomes vividly clear to me tonight that I have the power to choose not to. I have to be in CONTROL of my life! If I don't, who will? No one is going to be my cloud forever, following and chauffering me around. It is time to be independent. Time for the tinny winny XUAN to meet the world...

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2008-09-09T08:27:00.001+08:00

Ah Yee 一家

haha.. xiao yee whole family really came to stay with Ah ma le..lol..they getting condo soon..but in the time being come to stay at ah ma's house and i get to see the 2 little 'xiao gua', my cousins..hahha...Royce bout 13 months den Rachel bout 4 yrs ba..hee..both very angelic..haha...

however during outings with ah yee and the 2 kids, have to be rather careful..haha..think all children are lik dat..hee..have to carry them almost all the time..make sure they dun anyhow take stuff from the shop..make sure they are always out of danger...make them smile..keep them happy...teach them the different things around along the way to make full use of their learning capacity..haha...but i guess it's all FUN when u look back..haha...

last night went to ah ma house..btw my ah ma stay oni a few storeys apart from me..haha..Royce is starting to warm up to me..remembering who i am from the start..think he likes my left shoulder..haha...whenever i carry him at times that he's not so active he will straight away place his head on my shoulder..haha..so sweet..when he's bout 8 months, i still rem i used to go out with him and many times he fell asleep on my shoulder..there was once i walked ard TAKA with him asleep...haha..it's such a cosy feeling..though have to bear with a weight..hee..

haha..this was taken long time ago..think near end of last year ba..haha..motherly looking? lol..

ooh..too off le..back to last night..when my mom said that we gonna leave and i walked to the door..Royce quickly ran to me and threw his bottle of water onto the ground and raised his hands to signal 'baobao'..haha..tat's so sweet and heart throbbing...hahah..felt so touched :p

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2008-08-26T00:02:00.001+08:00

WOOHOO!!!

exams are finally over!! haha..right after exams went straight to movie..hee..super good..even the credits showed wonderful illustrations...the movie...

the same main characters..hahah..tis time a lot of focus is on the culture of China..but it still has the esscence of the Mummy..juz that tis time round the Mummy has changed..hee..in the movie there is tis Lin...i find that she's rather pretty in her ways..mayb her mysteriousness in the movie..but she juz look very Qing Xiu..

before we went in i wanted to treat the movie tickets but DL keep saying no..first time i see him hold his stand..haha..anyway we bickered which was rather funny den when HZ came we both laid down our reasons..me coz i juz finished my exams...DL coz he juz gt promoted..in the end HZ settle the thing by saying DL tickets, me drinks n popcorn...hahha...

when we exited the theatre, we saw 2 kids around 3 yrs old or less..at the capsule machines...they were there trying to poke at the holes alone...we were surprised as they look so small to be left alone..n other ppl who were there was also looking at the kids..den we realised that the mother was rather further away and round the corner..in the arcade...i was shocked..the oni thought that came to me was if those were my kids..i would never dare to let them off my sight...wat's more around a corner that i can't even see..scary....

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2008-08-20T21:31:00.001+08:00

EXAMS!!

it's been a fight...hahah... but it's not over yet...today the last paper for the sem exams le...finally...but still one last exam on mon...BSM PRAC!!!

wish mi luck man...it's super tough coz i haven't hit the videos for revision of BSM yet...aargh!! haha..but it will still come la..so i guess later finish settle all the small matters den hav to revise le..if nt very taxing..haha..today went for the revision cls that turn out to be lik a per- Mob lookout into the room..lol...super stressing...the things that HB says..the way the qns will be phrased...but i guess if i'm consistent den shld b no prob ba...JIA YOU XY!! :p

for the past 2 weeks..been lik my eyes can nvr leave the bks...read n read...the papers are so close together..this week's papers..each some more consisting of 3 or 2 modules together...really make us hav to apply things all at the same time...i guess that's also one of the main reasons y i so admire competent OTs...esp those who have made the course...Pei Fu de Wu Ti Tou Di...haa...hope one day i will be one of them too...:p

mummy say i nvr drink water..haha..always lik dat de..my pimples will all pop out during exams..sometimes i even can't recognise myself when i look into the mirror...haiz..too heaty le...time to drink my tea...hee...

there are so many things i wanna do...always exams times den start to really look into my desires...lik a bit cannot lik dat ar...i seem to always tell myself that at these times...it feels lik i dun hav a life..ahhha...but i guess i more of a lazy plus quite easily contented person ba...hahah..juz spending time with my family..i can juz go out daily with them..den other times is immersing in my studies...

guess that may b y i kinda boring ba...cox i seldom go out...but i'm also someone who is realli keen on gg out with my friends too..ahhah..i luv spending time with them...fooling and crapping ard..lol...but i spend most of my times in my commitments la..enjoying...:p

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2008-08-11T01:25:00.000+08:00

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion:

You have medium extroversion.

You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party.

Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences.

But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time."

Conscientiousness:

You have high conscientiousness.

Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life.

Most things in your life are organized and planned well.

But you borderline on being a total perfectionist.

Agreeableness:

You have high agreeableness.

You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly.

Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone.

You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance.

Neuroticism:

You have low neuroticism.

You are very emotionally stable and mentally together.

Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly.

Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure.

Openness to experience:

Your openness to new experiences is high.

In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.

You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.

A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

The Five Factor Personality Test

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2008-07-16T20:24:00.001+08:00

FINALLY!!

moi babies!!! lol..moi babies flower le!! Hee.. moving to adult stage..WOOHOO!! haha..so happy!!!

same week some more..haha..both together...10 weeks!! imagine that!!

i grew them from a tiny puny seed!! now it flowered!! haha..can't wait for long bean n peanuts to eat!! sshh..haha..cannot let my babies hear it..if not very sad..say eat its fruits..hee..:p

wonder will my class organise a picnic of our fruits of gardening..hahah..maybe..lol...can't wait for them to ripen :p

after the tedious strenous brain cracking report of gardening..surprisely..i love gardening even more..hee..the benefits that gardening gave is uncountable..how i wish to have a whole garden of various plants of my own............

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2008-06-14T21:58:00.001+08:00

GarDenIng...

a tree stump when first brought back from tian jue..nw glamorous...but hope the bark stays...coz previously lik too moist le..

wa..calves aching...quads...hamstrings...all aching...see my lack of exercise body at work...hahha...did gardening for the whole friday...with my mom..my sis help to say no space for her to help so she on off help oni...lol...we started at 1oam and end at 6pm!!!!! 8 hours!!!! hahah...repotted the whole thing...3 super big plants and 2 small plants...gt scratches here and there by the 海龙王...super heavy that both mi n my mom had to brace our full strength against it...somemore we had to shift it for 3 times!

but the outcome was satisfactory...the pics above are the fruits of our hard work...lol...nw look so much neater and more lik a little garden of our own...hee...think the plants aso smiling...:p

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2008-06-01T01:16:00.002+08:00

Seeing you from far

It makes my heart flutters

Sweet or bitter?

I never was clearer

Singing the last word of my sweet melody

I ran through all my memories

I’ve been through ages

A vicious cycle

When will this ever stop

My undying hope

For the day you turn back to me

Feeling like a fool

I disappoint my other friends

With my emo emotional airs

Oh! Why am I ever so stubborn?

Yet so keen to move on to be born

As a confident gal once more

my dear friends..i may seem to be always emo…but I really cherish and treasure each of u! I’m very sorry that I dun have the courage to overcome my barrier... y do I always have to land myself in such troubles…I dunno..i really dunno…I try to make everyone happy but in the end…I suffer myself…I try to make myself happy n in the end I still suffer…I guess that’s y life is not smooth sailing…

I’ll try to walk out of this cycle..but it’s hard…I’m very thankful for those who are around with mi…Thank you…

Should I be the happy person or the person who is happy? Should I always think of others or should I also have a thought for myself? Nothing is clear…

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2008-05-28T01:30:00.001+08:00

UPdates on moi BabiES!!!

hahaha...think i a lot of time rite...no lo...hahha...guess i realli like gardening...i didn't know that i can have green fingers...hahah...all the while my parents have been doing the gardening in the house...oni occasionally helping them to move the pots or transfer plants...i guessed i sort of picked up some skills here n there...haha...didn't realli lik watering the plants in the plants...oni when they start to droop and yellow den i took the pity to water for a day or 2...haha..nt realli a routine person...lol...

anyway, suddenly took a liking in plants during last hols..around march 08...den realise the wonders of immersing one into the growth process of a plant...the diversity of the structures..haha..den started watering n i revived almost all the plants in my hse...i can say...hahha..that's when my sense of satisfaction kicks in..lol..

den it comes to gardening in sch...i really luv it..though times are real packed n tired...but i go look for my plants anytime that has a few minutes free...haha..lik walking past the corridors..haha..will peep in for a while...hee..my friends will noe...hahah...wat i'm realli glad is my cls also luv this... we practically spend all our free time in the garden..it'll be a wonder if u trace our whereabouts...haha..many will appear in the garden quite frequently...FUN!!! it's lik a small world for us to regenerate for the rest of the day...hahah...

the pics taken on 20 may...the 2nd week of my gardening in sch...here's my peanut...the 2 pics are oni 1 day apart...they are so amaxing..growing freakingly fast...lol...

my long beans getting super tall...

STATICE!!

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2008-05-16T01:09:00.001+08:00

haha...was toking to ZS on msn n we did this...i did the eskimo n igloo...ZS..did the penguin n polar...lol...cute rite...:p

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2008-05-16T00:43:00.001+08:00

been rather eventful these days...recap my objective to write on blog...haha...wanted to have sth to look back when i grad...to find back my young or initial feelings of the profession and most imptly, my life.. :p

busy busy busy!!! hahah...all packed has been my tai ci ever since sch started...haha...realli full sia...feel that dun even have the time to slp lo..haha..luckily nw i dun realli have relationships to maintain..if nt sure die de...haha...so many things to do..yet so little time..

did gardening for Occupation as Therapy since last Fri...lol..been in the OT garden everyday ever since..except weekends la..haha..every time i there i saw another plant and also felt lik growing it..haha...i started with 2...nw i got 3 pots...in 5 days...lol...realli lik gardening..

i grew statice...a kind of flower used in flower arrangement...norm market sell is purple de...the small flowers are grown in a file on a stalk...hee...the seedlings appeared over the weekend...chao fast..hope will grow into flowers..haha...Jo said her mom used to love growing these..hee..

long beans!! hahah... i luv those..hahah..it sprouted 2 days longer that statice...the last is peanuts...

i was chao high n jumping all over the place when i dug up 6 baby peanuts from the plant in OT garden yesterday...haha..practically kept repeating n showing everyone who is in the garden the peanuts...hahaha...the peanuts were so fresh...white n pale yellow nuts with a very thin thin layer of bleach skin...feel lik eating..in case nvr c b4 peanuts from roots...when i dug them out...it's the roots den terminate with the peanuts in shells attached to the root...so cute la..hahha...it's a HARVEST man!!

really feel relaxed when step into the garden...i guess i dun mind staying there helpin out..coz realise i realli luv plants...hahah...:p

Our Precious BaBieS of OT2!!!

Babies of my Group B

Moi BABieS

Staticy Baby

Longy Bean Baby

Peanuty Baby still on the Way!!

Yeah!! Kampatia BabIeS!!!

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2008-05-09T23:48:00.001+08:00

Reach my neck le!!

realli accumulating...the work pile is getting higher n higher...n i'm still struggling to climb up...haix...esp this few days...all datelines clash...my cover letter...DYYJ...SC posters n write up...PBL...wah...

last night stayed up rather late to rush out a few le..but nw here i am again rushing for tml's dateline...guess i realli need to increase my efficiency n realli push myself....

last week wanted to get the healthy lifestyle...slp before 12pm...haix..but lik in tis course cannot ar...esp still hav other commitments...everything juz starts to pile...all the meetings gg on...get real confused who's in which grp...ahhah...even our classes for each module different le...so luan...AarGh!!!

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2008-05-04T23:45:00.001+08:00

Dad's Day Off

hee..after so many month's of work...dad finally had a day off to go outing with us..lol..of coz i had to grab the chance..that's my 1st priority of the day..to make the day for dad...

went to Sheng Siong as our 1st stop for our fav breakfast set..the one with the bread of the bun type...haha..den we shop shop look look at sheng siong..mom had to resist the temptation to get things..haha..if nt hav to carry for the rest of the dAY...

next up we took bus then MRT to Bugis...mom, mei n i went to Seiyu..den john n dad went to Sim Lim...the guys one team the gals the other...lol...

wa...Seiyu very gd sales lo...20% off all regular items...15% off sales items..realli storewide la..realli enjoyed shopping there...hee..bought a necklace for my birthday...hee...spent a lot these days...oops...hee...

went to 素食飘香 to have lunch...super nice..every dish we called very nice..last time jia brought me there to eat too...haha..i realise frm my parents that the boss has opened shop for 20 yrs le!!! no wonder...haha..n i even went to their former stall in Yishun often...dad n mom say last time the boss still carry me when i was below one..haha...so the boss uncle..known me as a child 20 yrs ago...nw met me as a 21 gal...haha..amazing rite...lol...

we went to Chinatown next...ahhah...went to the fav cd shop...n the cheena shop...hee..walk a lot...haha..

in the end all very tired le..haha..at first i wanted to go back with dad when mom wanted to continue to shop...i feel lik continue but kinda tired...but in the end..feel that mom alone so follow her...haha

we went back seiyu..coz there sales realli better..lol..gt a bracelet to match my necklace..lol..

realli tired when both of us finally gt onto the bus home..luckily it's rather empty... alot of seats!! haha..

realli had a great day today!!! Happy :p

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2008-04-23T08:07:00.003+08:00

Being Materialistic..

haha...mi friend was asking mi wat to buy for my 21st birthday present..den i said i dunno..coz i realli nvr thot of tis qns..haha..coz my thinking is anything will do lo..lol...it's the thought that counts ma..haha..

besides..those who noe mi de will noe i buy things hor very slow de..lol..hav to check prices..den lik it still dun buy..wait till go home think think le den decide..or go back same place to look at it for a few times before buying...haha...till the thing out of stock le den say haix...hahah...:p

norm i aso seldom shop...for mi shopping is more of a chatting time w friends...coz lik wat i say above..i seldom buy things on first look..so mostly is window shop...unless i hav an occasion or a need to get stuff..den i will dun care..if in my budget will juz get le..haha...so guess ppl who go shopping will feel that i very weird...hahah..coz my objective is nt to buy things ba...more of to chat, 'see' the fashion trends n to enjoy the free time ba..lol...

but since my friend say 21 different..muz get sth i need or really lik...den she aso suggest i put the ideas on blog so that others who considering to get a present can hav an idea wat i lik...so here goes... :p

actualli...anything w dolphins (muz look real de...haha..hav high expectations on the look..lol..) or hello kitty..i'll lik it la...lol...the rest i realli dun noe wat...so i think i'll juz state some interests of mine..hee...

gardening ba...recently juz took up gardening...so mayb can a detailed book on gardening?? haha... i luv handicraft...haha..collection of nice nice beads...haha..those that r more adult de...crystals type..nt the kids collection...lol..

juz a few la..hope it helps...:p but realli la...nw can oni think of things lik mp3 (spoilt le...:( sad) n digital cam...very x...nxt time i gt money den buy...hahah...so juz let ya creativity run loose...get anything u think suits mi n fell that i'll lik it den ok le...:p

2008-04-14T22:06:00.002+08:00

1st Day Back @ sCh ..

wa...so shag...so packed today...actually acc to time table every day packed la..lol..so Saturated...stacks of notes n reading stuff for reading accumulating...lectures on n on...kinda scary..think i scaring myself..but really a LOT of things happening concurrently..today learnt sth..when ur abilities can't cope w the changes, u're out of the Flow Channel...n in the pot of Anxiety...that's how i'm today...feeling saturated...looking lost...seems to have thoughts flying ard but disorganised....esp mobility when i need to relate learnt by body language..haha...a lot of hard work is needed...!!! i can foresee w/o flickering my fingers...lol...

juz a thot that flash past mi...guess really hav to camp in sch sia...so much to do..yet so little time..

i guess i'll pull thru somehow.. :p 万事起头难！Yeah!
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LapLap!!! FiNalLY!!

2008-04-06T22:05:00.000+08:00

hee...finally got moi laplap!! so happy..the feel on the keypad so cool...:p got it on last Sun..in a Fujitsu IT Fair at Funan...happen to noe it frm the papers...i very budget now...haha...so when i saw this offer..it was like a gift at the right time..hee...it's $1,388..paid out of my own savings...wanted to wait for sch's promo..but comparing frm last yr's promo..the models norm not so updated...besides is ard $1700 - $2000 plus..

a short intro to my laplap...:p

Made in Japan

Genuine Windows Vista® Home Premium

15.4-inch SuperFine Wide XGA display perfect for movie and picture viewing

Mega storage with 160GB 5400rpm SATA hard disk and Dual Layer DVD Super Multi Writer⁵ supporting DVD-RAM and DL DVD±R media

hee...quite heavy...2.6kg..but for the sake of my tastebuds for a large screen view..i hav to give n take the weight..:p

one drawback is trying to get a wireless modem..heard it's bout $100..haix...c when gt go IT shops ba.. :p

2008-04-01T22:39:00.002+08:00

shag...haha..

had dry run for OT Orientation Day the whole morning..though nt doing much..juz briefing n preparing stuff..den run a bit while following the pairs thru the telematch..but alrd so tired le..lol..the actual day...19apr..will chao tired sia...lol..but i'm sure super FUN too..:p i luv these events...as in when i'm organising..lol..luv the feel of getting things organised n run smoothly...:p

after dismissing the helpers..we pack up n had lunch...the south nvr open again..hope they will still open when sch starts..rather worried bout it...coz hols cum back lik nvr c open b4...haix...

we had a meeting to tie up the knots..improvise n split work...guess wat we do after meeting...unexpected...

GARDENING!!!

lol..went to OT garden to help pull weeds... alot sia...haha..pull ut bout almost whole bucket...n that's oni a few pots!! there r still a lot more..haha...

Jia played a joke on mi today..:(...kana bluff by her..it's the joke bout Gary...make mi realli believe...even started telling mi friends bout the news...den she sms say April Fool...that's when mi n friends realli pheng...hahah...so dotx...

aniway...

HAPPY APRIL's FOOL!!!

2008-03-30T01:37:00.001+08:00

Lets101 Quizzes - Fun Quizzes

2008-03-27T21:03:00.003+08:00

met up with ZM, CG, Eunice n PL on mon...at CP...hee...went to Sakae...my 1st time leh..把我的第一次献给了他们！！lol...coz i had dinner le...eunice say i hav to eat at least one dish if nt she angry...u noe i very kuai de ma..so i order 2 lo...lol..cha soba n some egg sushi thing..fried skin de...the cha soba so nice...luv it..first time eat but fell in luv w it.. :p

we keep suaning CG that she become more mature le...ZM keep saying she EVOLVE le..lol..CG that nite i try to stay quiet la..for ya sake..coz everyone suan u le..i dun wan add on ma...but at times..i realli can't stand..so i aso added a few..wahaha...:p

very fast...they all nw working le..haiz.mi leh...still a 穷书生..haix..pockets chao empty..who gg to sponser mi a bit...boohoo....hoo...lol...

eunice aso 3 yrs with her BF le...still rem that time when first hear frm her bout her bf oni their first yr...nw 3 YRS le...so fast...some more aso thinking of marriage le...juz that still a few more yrs coz eunice still young wan to chiong...hhahaha...but sometimes think if lik her BF... someone older by 8 yrs...someone who will teng u...gt the money to raise the family properly...no worries for financial burden...aso nt bad la..haha..juz sandcastles la...lol..

for mi...i'm a simple gal...juz someone who i feel is one who i can communicate at times of gd n bad...of gd character...lik children...one who will teng mi...my Mr Right...can le...hahaha...i rem there was once at mind cafe..we play the uno stacko truth or dare version de...the qns was..wat is the first impression that i'll take note of an opposite sex...though that qns nvr cross my mind before...but the ans that float to mi was...HIS SMILE...lol...dunno y...but that's my first thing on my mind...:p

2008-03-20T09:42:00.005+08:00

Story Time!!

hee...was telling Penguin yesterday tat was thinking mayb should write out the whole story somewhere...den nxt time can look back...n 自High a bit...lol... so here goes...

it all started on a day when i'm in the MRT...at least in my perspective of the story...hee...1 year back den...Penguin n I were SMSing...we were being lame.... as usual..lol...mayb is the influence of the recent joke that Penguin shared some time ago that the Polar Bear n the Penguin live in 2 diff poles...n that was when the Air Con Group was just established nt long ago....i started to spin up a story in the SMS...

On a Cold Day...lives 3 creatures who are always living in the cold...coz they very COLD (a.k.a LAME)...lol... they are Polar Bear (Mi!!)...Penguin (ZS)... Eskimo (FC)...[together we r aso the Air Con Grp..hee..]..

so the story goes with Polar living at North Pole, Penguin living at South Pole...n Eskimo being mobile...travels from North to South n South to North from time to time to visit these 2...

there are times when the 3 surprisingly comes to meet together...n their fav haunt is Singapore...

whenever they travel to Singapore, Polar will take the Polar Express(public transport as Polar hasn't received the money from Arctic Tales)...Penguin has his own Penguin Express (bought by the money he gt from acting in Happy Feet) and register at Singapore Zoo...

Y Singapore Zoo...not oni becoz it is where all animals are...but also coz there was once when Penguin decided to play a trick on Polar...so made a move to contact the zoo keeper to reserve a place for polar in the zoo...so when Polar was brought to the Zoo..kept nagging at the Zoo Keeper n aso gt a place for Penguin (a tooth for a tooth..lol)...

however, when both animals were there...the zoo keeper could nt bear with their bickerings and quarrels-den-make-up... so he kicked both of them out on the condition that they can always return to Singapore n roam anywhere else of S'pore after registerin at the zoo..but nvr to stay at the zoo...haha...so that's how Polar n Penguin gt the passes...

alright..so Eskimo always tak these chances to meet up together with both his friends...at Singapore...while back to gather with his relatives n family....but as a traveller...he stills misses his igloo...

toking bout igloos...we were discussing on one of the days we met at Singapore at TG...how does an Eskimo b able to keep his fire in the igloo without his whole igloo melting...??..hee....

ps: u lik the story?? hee...more updates will be added with labels stating 'PPE'...拭目以待哦！！

Air Con Grp Pte Ltd Copyright 2008 :)

2008-03-19T10:17:00.002+08:00

hee..thx to YX..my blog finally looks furnished... :p

went to watch Slam! with Penguin.. he got 2 preview tickets last min can't find ppl..so happen that we tok on MSN..

Slam! was not bad..mainly by ppl with China Accent...the main character..super thin guy..looks kinda lik our S'pore actor in 'I not Stupid'..hee..Machi Di Di aso in the film...was shocked to c him so grown up le...lol...

but then... i aso old le...hahah...迈向成人的脚步逐渐老化...wahaha...muz be the no. 21...hee...didn't realise that time has alrd past so fast when i'm 20...nw can feel the impact...hhahaa..but how ar...i still very childish leh...lol...lik wun change de..hahah...still always zhi high...lol...

dun wish to change anyway...hee..this is where i gt my happiness...mayb ppl may feel i too childish or always in my own world...but den... if i happy den y muz i care of other's opinions? anyway that's who i am..so that's no pt to supress ur own self to suit other's tastes right?? :p

2008-03-12T21:47:00.003+08:00

God Pls Bless Ah Ma...

finally manage to visit my ah ma at hosp...

ah ma went for leg op on tue...think elderly all very scared of hosp...actually no one nt scare de la...haha..dunno wat i saying..lol..

the night before the op ah ma was still saying she dun wan to go for the op le...think that time ah gong's incident really scare her...luckily in the end still gt go for the op...

first day after the op ah ma was in great pain...thank God the pain subsided as the days go by...LMCB..

today i went to hosp...ah ma still on painkillers..so bit drowsy...happen to reach there when the physio was there...my aunt told the PT that i'm currently studyin similar course..haha...kinda embarrasing moment..the PT joked 'attachment' when she asked mi to help her...guess i still have not gotten use to being friendly n saying the right words when first met with a stranger colleague... which i have to master soon...:(

anyway...think grand daughter sometimes say most elderly will be obliged to listen ba...hee...before that doc ask ah ma to move her leg constantly...but ah ma feel troublesome...so i added in my physio knowledge in sufficient amt simplified and ah ma started to feel the need to move her legs...:p

really hope ah ma can faster recuperate...den ah ma can go Bedok....markets....n many other places that she normally go... Ah Ma JIA YOU!!!! :p

2008-03-10T23:29:00.008+08:00

someone complained i nvr update my blog...lol...jk..
sorry la...to all readers..haha..will try to blog k... :p

was collating some pics to compile in CD..tot of post some to share with ya all.. mainly from the trip to KL last yr with my auntie's family...

my first hand arranged flowers..

fell Deeply In Luv w this...

Pretty huh...planted at the dooorsteps of Hotel

always Luv the 'Cooler' in Genting (polar bear's haunt..lol)

1st time ever on a Trad. Train..hee..so exciting & BUMPY...hee...back to baby cradle's Days...

proves my LLD...babies grow real fast...my cutie baby cousin... BABY ON BOARD :p

2008-03-08T23:08:00.001+08:00

Accurate Sia...!!!

◎您是七彩的大河，有商業頭腦，可以創造富貴。才華出眾，喜歡有仁慈，守承諾的人。聰明靈敏，學習能力強，觀察敏銳，但是缺乏執行力與行動力。◎

根據命理來分析您的個性，潛意識，以及行為模式，您是屬於「大河命」，因此您天生具有大河水的特性，聰明有才華，學習能力強，觀察敏銳，喜歡探究事物背後的道理，思路清晰，有獨具一格的判斷與分析能力，但是缺乏執行力與行動力。大河水波濤洶湧，一下流到這邊，一下又彎到那邊，因此您的思路十分活躍，一下想做這個，一下想做那個，想像力豐富，但是缺乏持續力，容易流於空談。大河水由小支流匯集而成，流向大海，中途有些會形成雲霧，或化成雨水，或流入湖泊，或進入地下水，因此您能夠以不同的角色來適應週遭的環境，不論多惡劣，您也能漸漸適應，進而改變環境。您對於環境的變動有很強的適應力，所以容易給人表裡不一的觀感，但其實是一般人不容易想像您的思維模式。大河水川流不息，不容易停下腳步，因此您思考能力強，但執行能力弱，您對週遭生活有很多的不滿與期待，也有能力改善，但就是不容易付諸行動。

此外，您喜歡平易近人，親切友善的人，不喜歡油嘴滑舌，虛情假意的人，而能讓您佩服的人，多半是成熟穩重，誠懇踏實的人。您的一生，像大河水一樣，無論流向何方，也能保有赤子之心，但是大河水也會經歷考驗，有時會結冰，有時會混濁，這些都是您一生中最大的磨練，只要您經得起外在的考驗，不怨天尤人，進而學習成長，一旦通過考驗，您的生活會更上一層樓，富貴綿長。

◎您本命五行木太旺，肝膽機能比較弱，容易肝火旺盛，要注意膽固醇，三酸甘油酯的問題。◎

根據命理分析，您天生肝膽功能比較差，在年輕的時候不會有太大的問題，頂多是肝火旺盛，長青春痘，容易煩躁等問題，但是如果您現在不照顧肝膽功能，隨著年紀越來越大就很容易有膽固醇過高或三酸甘油酯過高的問題，甚至容易導致免疫功能衰退、肝功能異常、脂肪肝、肝硬化、膽結石、膽囊息肉、青光眼、白內障或視力病變等問題。因此您不能過度勞累，而且千萬不能喝酒，要維持正常作息，早睡早起，才可以保護先天比較弱的肝膽功能。

此外，所謂「病從口入」，人類大部分的疾病來源都跟飲食有關，根據中醫理論，食物可以分成金、木、水、火、土等五種五行。您可能偏好吃酸的東西，像是泰國料理，或是酸辣湯等，應該都符合您的口味。因此，您的細胞中，充滿太多「木」的五行，會導致健康，財運與事業的不圓滿，建議您平時最好能飲食均衡，菜色均衡，則陰陽五行調和，生活美滿幸福。

◎但是您八字缺土，胃腸的機能也比較弱，容易有腹脹，腹痛，腹瀉，消化吸收的問題。◎

根據命理分析，您天生胃腸功能比較弱，在年輕的時候不會有太大的問題，等多是腸胃不適、胃酸過多、脹氣、腹瀉、腹痛等問題，但隨著年紀越來越大，胃腸功能需要更多的照顧，不然很容易導致消化系統病變，例如食道炎，胃炎、胃潰瘍、腸炎、大腸息肉、痔瘡、糖尿病等問題。因此您不能過度勞累，要調適壓力，維持正常作息，早睡早起，三餐要定時定量，不能喝酒，少吃刺激性飲食，才可以保護先天比較弱的胃腸功能。

此外，您是屬於容易緊張的類型，生活也比較缺乏規律性，因此三餐常不定時不定量，甚至因長時間工作而來不及用餐，導致胃腸的消化吸收功能受損。如果您想改變這種現象，一定要三餐定時定量，不可暴飲暴食。身體要放輕鬆，精神要保持愉快，不要給自己過多的壓力。只要您每天保持好心情，那您的命運將會有很大的改變，身體健康，財運順利，事業圓滿，家庭幸福。

◎簡易愛情分析，您是屬於柏拉圖式的精神愛情。您的愛情因為雙方生活背景差異大，價值觀也有落差，因此對方並不容易真正瞭解您，其實只要您們多溝通，讓對方瞭解自己真正的想法，相處就不會有問題。◎

您愛情的模式，根據命理分析，在您生命中出現的異性，常常第一眼就很容易喜歡上您，但是他們常常覺得追不上您，只要對方敢追您又追到了，您們的愛情會火速發展，但時間一久，就會火藥味不斷，因為對方確實有點高攀，自然需要忍受一些您的脾氣。一般來說，異性對您的第一印象都會覺得很亮眼，尤其您有才幹又有魅力，但是卻覺得您有點高不可攀。換句話說，您很容易被人喜歡，因為得天獨厚，所以也就不珍惜，也不想學習如何維繫感情。因此，如果您在等待美好的愛情，您可以試著把自己的外在美收斂起來，讓對方不是只因為看到您的青春美貌或聰明才幹而跟您交往，而是要對方真心覺得適合您才跟您交往。如此之前的桃花都會煙消雲散，而真正的愛情也將降臨。

在人生的旅程中，您的戀愛或結婚對象常常與您有很大的差距。換句話說，您不太容易跟身邊的同事或同學擦出愛的火花，反而容易和不同背景的人發生戀情，您們在心智上，生活上，或環境上，都是分屬不同的世界。這種新奇又不一樣的感覺，讓您們彼此吸引。但是雙方認知上的差距存在，卻會是您們要一起克服的鴻溝。您比較容易碰到互補型的戀愛，也就是雙方共同性很少，但差異性很大。因此，您所喜歡的對象，比較適合當好朋友，若是論及婚嫁，您可能需要仔細思考。此外，若是您的對象還沒有出現，回想身邊的人，您覺得越不可能的人就越有可能，只要您真心誠意給對方一點暗示，幸福就在您身邊。

◎簡易事業分析，您的工作類型大部分都需要靠腦力，從事一些思考導向的工作。這類型的工作，需要邏輯思考，策略分析，創意想像，以腦力為導向。◎

每一個行業中都有不同的職位，而您的工作類型，不論在哪一個行業中發展，大部分都需要靠腦力，從事一些思考導向的工作。例如，經營者思考營運策略，業務人員思考如何增加業績，研發人員思考如何突破技術，行銷人員思考如何開拓市場，藝文工作者思考如何創作作品等。這類型的工作，需要邏輯思考，策略分析，創意想像，以腦力為導向。如果您選擇從事這類型工作，您會比較順利，輕鬆，也更能發揮所長。但是世界上跟您一樣聰明的人很多，唯有加上經驗的累積才有無可取代的價值。

另外，您的工作類型容易產生下列迷思。一、聰明的人多半有跳躍式的思考，讓旁邊人跟不上腳步。二、聰明的人充滿創意，但是缺乏執行力，容易說得多做得少。三、聰明的人比較不喜歡溝通，喜歡有話直說，所以不容易得到上司提拔。此外，對於其他工作領域，像是重複性質的工作，瑣碎事務的工作，協調整合的工作，或體力勞動的工作，都是您比較不適合的工作類型，您會覺得乏味無趣，不願意做，也做不久。

◎簡易財運分析，您未來很會賺錢，但是不喜歡靠工作賺錢，喜歡利用錢來賺錢。◎

根據命理分析，您現在可能沒有感覺到您的財運，但是您未來很會賺錢，而且不喜歡只依靠工作賺錢，您比較喜歡利用錢來賺錢，也就是所謂的投資或是創業。您從很年輕的時候就知道錢財的重要性，也知道只靠薪水很難致富，因此您會比一般人更早接觸投資理財，所以當別人在揮霍金錢，享受生命的時候，您在投資理財，所以自然能夠累積更多的財富。此外，您天生比較精明，不會在不必要的地方花錢，但是您對於子女卻比較捨得花錢。如果以一生的時間來衡量，您今生大部份的財富會被您拿來繼續投資，或是犒賞自己以及身邊的人。之後，這些財富大半會遺留給子女及婆家。

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2008-03-05T16:07:00.002+08:00

hee...went to Taka on sat...

saw the Wisma fishes...so sad la...left oni a few fish...:(

i'm a loyal fan of the aquarium...haha..seen it ever since i'm a kid...lol..coz everytime pass by ma...lol...last time gt sharks...den gt baby shark...nw nt even one...haiz...they took off the barricades le...hope they dun one day decide to remove the whole thing...they gt childhood memories...:p

so funny la...went to orchard twice in 3 days...n both times aso met shuqi...lol... so qiao... :p

2008-02-19T18:01:00.002+08:00

today is a joyous day...haha...morning bro gt the sms..gt posted to SRJC... at least he's gg to JC le...time for him show wat his brains are capable of..hee...mom floating with clouds on her feet...hahah...mom gt phone calls from both work areas...after months n mths of waiting...hee...

came back frm anat paper...shag...but dunno how to really prepare for tml's paper..so wide in scope...

anyway...mom juz nw ask me when hols..told her she say she more tired than mi during my examz..i said...oh yeah....
eye power to ask me to study while she 'slack'...mind power to psycho me to go out with her...hahaha...

den she replied is LOVE power...hahah...that's when i say....YEEEEEE.....:p hahah

2008-02-06T00:57:00.000+08:00

my eyes are bulging...as black as panda's de le..juz that i'm not whie...wahaha... think 1 whole day of staring at the com n squeezing out 2000 words and more has drained me..i've practically started from morning 10 plus till nw...1 am the next day...

wat's more..tml CNY's eve..haha..hope i last the night...but it'll be too bad for my look on the first day of CNY..lol..panda look...cum to think of that panda quite cute la..lol...told ya..i'm nt at the right state of mind nw...:p

gg off to slp le...nitex.. -_-

2008-02-02T23:58:00.001+08:00

What Chen Xuanyu Means

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.
You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.
A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are incredibly sexy and sensual. You have a naughty vibe that no one can ignore.
You have an unquenchable desire. And you are unrestrained in your passions.
You have a tendency to be unfaithful. Whether you fight it or give in to it is up to you.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.
And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.
You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.
You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.
You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

2007-11-20T21:12:00.000+08:00

you think i shld give up??

it's been so long..true..i'm tired everyday...dun rem ever having a break during weekends..i think i lao le...but with the thing (my NNJ) i feel even worse...i became less control of my mood...my face become blacker as the days of lack of slp extended every single day...things not reducing...yet pileing..

many a times i juz wan everything to stop...but i also noe the consequence of stopping...but how can i make this hav a turn...? i dun no...when can Lao Mu give mi an ans...i've been working hard tis while...pushing away so many chances...chances that in the past i'll never say no to...chances that will nvr be back again...

can't they c my effort?? y muz i always return back frm a day's work n receive neg...mayb it's me...

mayb Lao Mu is telling mi that i'm not doing enuff...so everything is still lik that...but i dunno where to start or continue nw...it seems lik all this while i'm juz swimming in a long lost swamp...lost my directions...

n i'm back in square one...i feel drained...no motivation le...i noe deep down my heart will nvr change...but i aso noe this is really getting out of hand le...everything will remain stagnant if i dun do anything...

but i dunno how...

Lao Mu...pls show mi the light....

2007-10-19T23:37:00.000+08:00

Tagged by Ah Jiao

Rules:
*Each blogger must post these rules first
*Each blogger must start with eight random facts/habits about themselves
*Bloggers tagged need to write in their own blog about their eight things
*At the end of your blog, choose eight people to get tagged, and list their names

1. I am very ‘Diao-ed’ by this tagging thing..haha..

2. I love HELLO KITTY!!!

3. I am a rather PINK person.. Friend call me Pink POODLE.

4. I am Polar Bear. (me featured in Artic Tales..look out for mi k? :p)

5. I am an OT(occupational therapist) to be.

6. My course is challenging n tiring but i still love it.

7. I eat everything that is vegetarian.

8. I enjoy crapping and ‘zi high’ most of the times.

I will tag: (I also don’t know if they ever come and read this.. )

Shi Jia

Yong Xiang

Zong Seng

Bailey

Regina

Herek

Shi Ying

Shi Mei

2007-09-07T22:56:00.000+08:00

hee...
went to watch Evan Almighty yesterday wif DL n HZ...it was superb!!!

the animals are so cute...esp when they start helping to build the Noah's Ark...the guy in the movie is so cool...lol...thoughout the movie his dance was lik ouch wow whoo...lol...no words to comment...haha...diao type of dance...lol....but his actions n words were really funny....hee

apart from the scene of building the ark with animals (my fav!) swarming around being my fav scene...the part where the birds flew into his office n sat poised when the minister came in n the fishes in the minister's office really took the lid off my laughing gas bottle....wahhaha...it was so so funny!!!!

nt oni that ...the movie was aso very profound in my opinion...

there were God's words...if u ask God will give..watever God do is coz he loves u.... If u wanna change the world...do an Act of Random Kindness (ARK)...

best...

if u pray to become courageous...do u think God gives u the courage or the opportunity to b courageous... if u pray for the family to have closeness...do u think God gives u the bond or the opportunity to love, b loved n to embrace each other.....

if u pray to be in harmony with ur siblings...do u think God gives u masked ur siblings, stick tape ur mouth with 3M scotch tape or the opportunity to learn to given in to ur siblings n find the rhythm that fits both u n them.....

i guess in life there r a lot of things that shapes a person...n God is around to help.....i can't c him...but i feel him...he's juz inside mi...obstacles...ups n downs...floods...droughts....full in life...wat matters most is wat i wan in life....wat i wan to b....

*Lao Mu de Hai Zi*

:p

2007-08-27T21:04:00.000+08:00

juz attended a talk on clinicals...

suddenly had the flash played in my head of mi sailing out in the mysterious deep blue sea in a large 'pirate' ship...the steering and the pace at which we reach the destination depends solely on my decision...nothing clear cut is ahead...i can see no boundaries ...yet i noe i hav to do whatever i can to ensure my survival and the safety of my crew...

'pirate' ship = my knowledge, physical, mental self, ATTITUDES...
destination = lend efficient n effective helping hand to all the ppl who needed help
my crew = clients, health professionals, my fellow OT mates...resources...

frm the talk... it assured mi that OT journey is a neverending learning n self upgrading journey...the oni thing i have to fall on n also the oni thing i have to brush up on n improve on in order to bring myself further into the profession n relish my passion to the fullest is my 'pirate' ship....it's the one that enables mi to communicate n link up with my crew... the one that follows my decisions...where it steers follows my heart....wat i discover n recover...follows my heart too... thus...it is the improvement n researching n 'digging' of all the available resources to enhance my steering n the pacing decided that enables the destination to be reached.....

nothing ahead is clear...but if i were to stay forever in the midst of the sea n never strive to improve that will cause the ship to drift aimlessly....eventually destroyed...nothing solved...nothing discovered....nothing seen....destination unrevealed.....

2007-07-14T11:55:00.000+08:00

hahaha...suddenly had the inspiration and urge to post up the bags i got frm ShangHai... i wanna go AGAIN!!!!! who can sponsor me??? pls??? someone?? lol....it's such a gd place...juz that i didn't had much time to shop....so sad...lol....

the bags i got...the way i bargain...it was a terrific exciting first experience for mi...lol....i manage to get both bags at S$10 each!!! imagine that!!! n i think the quality not bad some more..lol... me moi n mum still dreaming of gg again...hahah...that's our usual topic nowsaday...though it's gonna b one month since we came back frm China in 3 day's time...lol....

the lesportsac de even include a bag for laptop!!! wat a bargain! really luv both bags...lol!!!

still rem the time when i showed the bargains we gt to the singapore tour guide...so funny...haha...he was lik wa...u all buy a lot huh...haha...n when i went up the bus...everyone look at mi n go wa...coz i was holding a big trash bag with all the bags in it....one of the stall literally gave mi a trash bag!!! lol...so funny should hav take pic...lol...

nice rite...lol...

can't differentiate if is imitation.haha...one of my friends even ask mi tis brand is the one very x one rite..lol...

the laptop bag included...

fashion rite..haha..a lot of ppl i met say nice sia...worth it!!! hahaha...

2007-07-09T20:34:00.001+08:00

feels so warm....hee...met my junior...KS...on msn...he was asking mi to organise a gathering for AVA ppl...lol...saying that he misses us all...true...we all misses each other a LOT...really glad to hav this bunch of buddies...hee... GOD bring them to me..n i thank GOD...

3 yrs hav passed since we stop seeing each other every day when we grad frm sch...yet we r still yearning for the day we meet to come...n really immerse ourselves in each other's reminsence of wat they've been doing for the past 3 yrs...lol...

it's lik there's a special place in heart juz for my AVA guys that no one..nth can ever replace...the place juz seem so naturally reserved for them..lol...

how i wish that day would come... :p

2007-06-27T21:08:00.000+08:00

haha..juz came back frm ChinA...no tIme to SHOP!!! went with my ah Ma n RelaTives...totAl 12 ppl..hee...biG Grp... Purpose: BriNg Ah MA to ChiNA...

most Of the journey is of culture oni for LAst 2 days At ShAngHAi, free n Easy...but no one wan to shop...mum n i so Sad...haha...mIssEd e chanCe to go BacK to Qi Pu Lu to 'sharpen' our knife...lol...to Sha Jia...hahahaa...we gt 70% off..hahah...juZ one trick....walK AWAY!!!! lol...

realy EnRiching Trip...reAlise that SiNgaporeanS realli dun take caRe of bOdy...n that realli need to TAke Care due to oUR sTress envir....withOut our Jia Ti, how r we gg to Xiu Dao....with a clearer mind...nothing is impossible....:p

realli touched...H says gg to Aust still will give mi long dist calls...haaha...though i noe he may b joking..but i noe if he go le he'll give at least one de...by his character...n for knowing him so long...haha...

a very gd buddy i have....always there for me...hee...we gt nth under the sun we can't tok bout...always Ti Liang my busy schedule...

of coz D aso...juz dat nw no time....if nt wanna call him....noe his character...wun take initiative to call de...hee....

den there's my ava junior BrO, Y...haha....juz reminded mi dat we noe each other for 5 to 6 yrs le....so sweet....so long le....hee...we still converse lik nth can stop us....:p

i'll learn to cherish all of the ppl ard mi...though things may b tight...but friends r more impt den always rushing for things...lol....

2007-06-06T21:11:00.000+08:00

8 weeks le...:p so Fast...start my journey to be a competent OT for 8 weeks le...can't believe it...lol...things are moving real fast...gotta know so many new friends... and the fact that we get along so well it literally amazes me...haha...coz i used to oni show my true self(lameness) to religion friends or CCA friends or close friends...haha...

my whole class is made up of lame n EVIL ppl...lol... juz fyi, whoever is lame is aso EVIL...lol....dat's moi dearest class...haha...

say more bout my cls nxt time...nw no time...too much to say bout them le...haha...

anyway....C CAMP LEFT 15 DAYS le...i have 5 hot projects tickling n bumping onto my heels.....Physio test on tue of wk 11...dat's 1 day after i return S'pore....great.....haiz....n I'm rushing like mad....coz hav to finish all projects ...hopefully by tis wk...coz all wk 12 hav to present....den i'm leaving S'pore for 8 day trip to CHINA....

Moi Physio bk will get a chance to take the plane at least...lol...

haha...LMCB...camp starting to take shape le...nw aso very crucial...but guess i should apply wat i learnt in planning....心要转!!!

so..

JIA YOU! JIA YOU! JIA YOU!!!!!!! everything will be over before i knew it...but nw is the crucial period to determine wat i will get when everything tides down...

PERSEVERVE & NEVER REGRET!!!!!

2007-02-23T23:51:00.001+08:00

i've seen the cruelty side of the coin....i feel so unsecure...so uncomfortable...y can't the world be filled with laughter n not hatred....love is sth easy to express when it comes from the heart...so y cover our hearts n let sth so wonderful lay hidden?....
where can i find my habour at work....with colleagues who backstab....colleagues who say diff things to diff ppl....colleagues who sound diff to others in front of u....making u doubtful bout the 'friendship' within....can we ever trust colleagues??? i dun even feel safe to say a word in front of my colleagues....haha...profound qns rite...haha....guess dat's wat everyone face....so....do i hav to go back to being numb bout 'ren shi'....n jux do things well??? guess dat's the most effective way...haha....but quite unhealthy...so it's very impt for us to hav friends....to VENT OUT....haha...

for these...i'm very grateful to my friends....my religion friends esp...coz they're the ones who allow me to express myself freely...nothing to hide...haha...MY BIG FAMILY...haha...of coz there're my 2 very great buddies!!! Dong Li & Hong Zeng!!!! haha...has been contacting mi nw n den though i'm dat busy till i hardly see them....haha...but they sacrifice their phone bills n throats to accompany mi thru these yrs...:p

last night finally managed to meet both of them after numerous attempts to arrange the gathering...haha....went to AMK to watch protege (Men Tu)...very Bang!!!! very educational too!!!! really get to c the process of drugs smuggling....learnt a lot....though Liu De Hua (Kun Ge) acts a second role...but his acting skills really showed....esp the part when he brought the Li Ge to Thailand as a suspect of betrayal....the way he confronted Li Ge...adn the 360 degrees change when he realise he accused him...from a threatening being to a harmless child look...n even said to Li Ge....dun b lik a child leh, sit down la!...haha..the whole scene very funny...Kun Ge very CUTE!!! haha...

2006-11-20T23:57:00.000+08:00

Life’s starting to pick up again…

I’m starting to be doing a lot as an assistant in dental work…training period

Long gone…haha..today Tricia not here somemore…in the end…I did the

Job alone…very scary…juz relating the procedures in my head before I

Leave for work has quickened my heart beat…wat’s more the actual doing

Of it…my heart almost jump out…now I noe y Tricia always jump when

someone call her from behind..i jumped when carol called mi..even though

I’m packing up for the day…lol…but LMCB…today went quite smooth…

Other den my speed for washing the equipment still sucks….i managed to do

the stuff..haha…nt wan to hao lian…but juz wanna note it down on blog…

doc say my scaling n polish can make it le!!! N my CAP gt 80% can

le…WohoooOO!!!!! Hahaah…but of coz…this is oni the start…I still hav

lots to learn n polish up…way way a long way to go…haha…

tml starting a new job…helping Belinda (Brandon’s wife) as admin in her

new shoe business…dun really noe her…oni tok to her once..think she

should b ok ba…even though everyone says working with female bosses r

harder…I really hope I can do well in this job n learn as much as possible

frm it…oni by putting in all my best in every single thing will I reap wat I

sowed…I’m nt gg to b lazy again…dat’s wat cause my deterioration in my

studies…n I’m nt gg to do it again…

2006-11-20T23:56:00.000+08:00

Yesterday help out in JXB….

Tis time round really gave mi a lot of Qi Fa…

Being a planner of any activity really gains a lot…learnt n felt a lot about

Shi Qian Ren…though the feelings r only short lived but better den I never

noe them…SQR really very Wei Da…watever he did is for others…never

once for himself…nt oni was he a faithful n dutiful father to his

children…he was n is a respectful n loving father to us all…he paved the

road for us..without the thought of being repaid….I really Ji Pei him frm the

bottom of my heart…wan to Zhen Xiu really very difficult lo…lik wat YR

TZ say…he tried but failed many a times..even someone lik YR TZ also

finds it difficult..wat’s more Hx…but SQR did it..JXB had allowed mi to

remove the bk frm Cold Storage..haha…really Gan En dat Hx have this

golden opportunity to b one of the planners tis time round…allow my

perspective to b widened dat watever we hav now is there becoz of the never

ending sacrifices made by our Qian Xians…not dat we deserve them….We

hav to learn hw to sacrifice our luxuries before we can enjoy our

sacrifices…so true….

2006-10-25T23:17:00.000+08:00

realised the importance of her in my world...esp my inner world...felt so emotional without...

am i les or wat...haha...Jk...lol...

mayb i've taken her for granted...in some ways...or mayb i made her feel dat way...

but watever i can rem...i didn't tak any moment wif her for granted...

i 'fu chu'... i noe i did...tis is nt the case lik ZM...totally diff...wif ZM our percentage of

'fu chu' is 70% to 30%...i'm the one giving 30%..feel bad bout it..but guess dat's wat's fate bout..

oni when u met the rite friend of ur life den u will really give all in...

n i noe all is given to her...

oni wif her my heart's burden is reduced....can hav the courage to face the challenges in life...

though i noe she's nt a very gd listener...but i aso noe dat she's trying to b one when it's mi

who have grieves for her to listen to...all along it's been this way....n i believe....it'll b

tis way...

FOREVER...

2006-10-25T23:11:00.000+08:00

very happening tis days...haha..

yesterday went to ViVOcity wif Derek...finally met up wif him...haha...think i rejected his offer

4 or 5 times...haha...paisay ar derek...lol...

think the whole meet up went quite well...given dat we dun really spoke to each other during

SEC...ahaha..the place very big lo...alll the shops...branded...haha...so many things to c...

a bit lik country pumkin...hahah...coz i seldom shop...in the end...derek lik my tour guide...haha...

showed mi the diff brands...elab a little on their characteristics....hahah...learnt a lot..

n wanted to buy...but very x...!!!! :( haha...but really eye opener lo...a lot of nice clothes...

very unique...we shop frm bout 5 till bout near 8 still haven't shop finish lo....juz before we leave we saw

another stretch of shops dat we haven't shop yet....haha...

best part is the outside scenary...wow...lik on cruise...haha...ppl taking photos...OOPS...juz

rem...I FORGOT TO TAK PHOTOS!!!!! AARGHH...stupid...how can i forgot dat....haiz...

anyway....standing along the railings....looking out at the sea....cing SENTOSA...n the ferries....lik

TITANIC lo...haha...the atmosphere there really very gd...we even saw a couple drinking wine while walking...YEAH...

they practically took wine glasses n walk ard...haha...weird couple...haha....really fun...haha...

mayb i'm nt the kuai kuai nui dat i think i am...haha...i actually lik tis kind of shopping...haha...

hanging out wif friends...haha....thx derek....:p

2006-10-17T22:00:00.000+08:00

helped auntie KC...did volunteer work...taught ppl who r ex drug addicts...ex smokers...
some r old...some middle aged...my first thought accepting tis offer is
scary..coz i feel unsecure at the thought of facing them...

luckily the other side of mi dorminant my actions...i hav the rite mindset facing
them...i treat them as my friends...

my bro 'escort' mi there..at first he's quite unwilling..moody...haha...
but he turn out to feel fulfilling n appreciate the experience...where i'm very
glad of...hahaha...

it was quite fun n meaningful...they may say weird stuff...but they're juz lik kids..
when i showed them the way for making handicraft flowers...they were so delighted
at the way the flowers blossom...if instead my 'students' were to b other ppl of the society
they may juz ooo ar ya....so i guess dat's the great difference in them...they
express their heart felt feelings...

the feeling...the satisfaction felt when u thot wat was impossible for shaking
hands to complete actually appeared right in front of u...they made the flowers
...some were even very nice n better den mine even though those were their
first handmade flowers!!! i'm so delighted for them...

one of them actually said pls let him bring back a flower to show his mom..
though wat purpose it may b for or whether it may b a lie...but i will
definitely keep tis touching memory wif mi...

tis r the ppl who need help...even juz teaching them easy handicraft will brighten their day..
seeing the smiles i've put on their faces as their flowers blossom made
my day a fruitful n memorable one....

2006-10-01T21:39:00.000+08:00

yum yum...!!! swensens!!! my very first 'Earthquake' hahaah...we shared a giant
one bet 6 ppl!!! lol...first time in my life eat 8 flavors of ice cream at
one go...haha...ppl r CF..XJ..SM..JM..SJ...!

haiz...

juz the type of person i am...one hu think a lot but poor in using words
to express...haiz...gave the necklace...but wat came out of my mouth is kind
of diff...haha...contradicting rite...the main reason is....wanted to say i happen to c the necklace n thot
of the person...think dat person will like it dat's y i bought...in the end
i oni told the person bout part of the reason...haha...said coz birthday nvr gif present
so treat it as a belated...haha..me a weird gal rite...say things half half de...
haha..

anyway....everything happen so fast...been nt in sch for almost 1 yr le...sad...

haiz...Mable said we should let parents noe roughly wat we 'LY'ing...i find it very hard...haiz..
very hard...while i work ppl rest...den weekend most of the time gt religion stuff...so of coz my family
c little of mi...haiz...they'll nt categorise whether u go out for wat stuff...once out means u r out..
so everytime u go out too long...volcano will errupt...lol...
ya...sometimes really very tired...first friends...den studies..nw family...
oni one thing to comfort myself...xiu dao ren if meet ni jin (bad situation) better den
sun jin...haha...a bit lousy excuse la...ahaha..

sad sad...

2006-09-09T23:13:00.000+08:00

Y do I feel the gap between us… or am I undergoing depression…haha..

Sometimes I feel so tired…sick of everything…feel my life so plain…

I’m right beside u.. did u ever notice… mayb both of us r juz doing the same things…

Silly stuff…

U dun look at mi when I alight the bus nowsaday… which we so often do in the past…even made faces…

Regardless of the ppl ard…

Rem the sort of promise we made together…whenever one has doubts or unhappiness

Bout the other’s behaviour…we say it out clear..

Guess it’s easier said den done…

We noe wat’s happening..but we’re keeping numb frm it…

U may think u changed… but I dun think so…

U may hav diff views to things… but it’s nt dat u’ve changed… it’s oni the consequence of

Experiences… dun avoid the prob… u’re juz depressing yourself to nt to b high lik before wif mi..

I feel real tired… I realise all along… whenever u keep quiet I’ll b there to spend quite a time to cheer u up

Again…haha…those days…but hav u ever thought 1 day I would b depressed within n need u the most….

Lik now… yet u chose to close the ‘door’ at tis pt of time…

2006-08-29T18:12:00.000+08:00

Tired….

Juz finished ah gong’s praying ceremony…waiting for hair to dry…den can head for a light nap before…let’s say a late dinner…hahha..

It’s a two day thing…last night my cousins, uncles taunt the night…played poka cards to kill time…haah..my cousin n I even played wif peanuts to keep us awake…hahha…guess the way we play…clip peanuts onto our face..hahha..gt a photo of mi..in her phone…nxt time gt le den poat it…haha…very funny…I grew a peanut beard over the night…wahaha…

We ordered vegetarian buffet for 2 meals in total..…nt cooked by a veg chef…first one was horrible…very salty…some more my relatives r nt vegetarians…so almost tarnish the ‘vegetarian taste’ reputation…we complained…den luckily today’s one was still acceptable…hahha…LMCB..if nt nxt time they might nvr wan to touch vegetarian food…phew…

The weather was very fine…haha..think ah gong sure around…both days gt gentle yet cooling breeze…first day gt rain a bit…realli lik spray a bit of water oni..didn’t even realise it till u walked in it..today almost gonna rain after we finish den bright daylight again for now…weird…:p

Been thinking to gt a flip phone or slide phone…slide phone screen big nice but need lot of electricity to maintain…flip cool but easily spoil…nvm…still gt time to think…

*Yawn*…eyes peeling…mind’s blank…nitez…

2006-08-22T13:46:00.000+08:00

finally i got the permission to tak leave for nxt mon..to pray my aH GONG first yr...
luckily my doc still nt bad...haha...

time really flies...1 yr le...haven't seen ah gong for 1 yr le...

dun think i hav the face to c him too...rem when i was J1, my ah gong watches news everyday...
the news broadcast dat the A level results was announced...ah gong thot i'm J2...called straightaway n asked..
' ah B can go uni nt???' i still rem his voice over at the phone vividly...
yet...ah gong chose to leave during my a level prelims....if he's still ard...

ah gong gt qiu tao...i noe he'll b in heaven looking over mi....

wat i would lik to tell him is dat i'll nt juz give up so easily...tis may b my biggest obstacle at the moment in my life...
but i'll try ways to overcome it...i wan to live even better den before...more meaningful...
academic is nt everything...but it's sure part of my life n will b forever...
so...i'm nt gg to let go so easily...fan xia is sth dat i hav to learn...
in this case i'll oni learn hw to fan xia the failures before n pick myself up to face the challenge ahead...

noe it's easier said den done....but i believe...with my heart to it...i'll slowly learn how to...:p

2006-08-21T11:37:00.000+08:00

My heart aches…really aches….y those ppl I noe n thought they’ll stay do otherwise…can’t they understand dat they’re juz contributing to the diminishing trend of seniors or participants hu r more proactive or in other words more ‘on’…

They kept saying they feel sian already…their heart’s ‘fire’ is dying…but is it true dat oni them r the ones….y can’t everyone put their hearts together…if dat ‘fire’ is really gg out…den the more we should stay together put our hearts together…I believe with each tiny spark dat is left in our hearts will b able to cause a full blast of fire ball dat will once again light up all of us again…

Pls pls…dun leave Hx…dun leave…

Nothing will ever b the same again without each n every one of u….

I dun wan the myth to happen or to even appear…ah xiu luo said there’ll b internal intervention…where bai yang di zi will b ‘tested’ by some ppl amongst…

I may tak everything calmly…I may look calm…but that’s oni my appearance…my heart is aching….badly…hardly…tearfully…

2006-08-19T23:33:00.000+08:00

Tao yan zi ji de wu nai…tao yan zi ji de qi nei…tao yan zi ji bu zhong yong…ever since the incident that let mi grow…I lost my confidence…without the innocence thinking dat everything can go as u wish when u mak the effort…I felt extremely lost…

Without a stable study pathway…life feels lik an aimless lonely route…

Acadamic is not everything in life..i understand dat…perharps I’ve oni grown to a certain extent…oni seen the practical side of the world….but nt really adapted or found a way to accept it fully…haiz…hw I wish to b back at sch…

Work is never gonna b as fun as sch…I can put in a lot of effort n try to jing ye le ye (love my job)…but ppl might nt appreciate it…though I dun need ppl to confirm on my abilities…it’s juz dat ppl sometimes juz tends to find fault in u…or sometimes when u r juz a little careless it’ll b obvious…lik watever is done rite will b transparent…watever is wrong will b totally opaque…hahaha…weird description…

Actually…LMCB…the jobs dat I gt can b considered nt bad le la..till nw I didn’t gt any serious scoldings yet…hopefuly none at all…so quite gd le…

Fortunately..there’s my religion to reassure mi…being involved in HDZ (program planning com) gave mi a great sense of belonging…with this com n the religious activities I attended let mi feel dat without academic at the time being I am still of some use…I’m nt handicapped without studies for tis period of time….allows mi to change my perspective to taking tis as a short break to the forth coming studies I hav to go thru in time to come…

Without the usage of Internet daily at the tuition centre…I really miss the free surfing I can do…esp my MSN friends…haha…XJ, ZS, Ah Di…hahaha… almost everyday we chat…nw cannot chat…so sad… guess dat’s the power of computers…haha…addictive….:p

Gt so many things nt done…arrange my digital photos…deco n furnish my friendster account…republish my blog…post photos onto multiply…haiz…without a proper com…I can’t do them…guess all hav to wait…

2006-08-16T15:03:00.002+08:00

at times, we tend to lose directions of one another, forgot each individual needs, lost the 'antenna' that we so often use to communicate with without a word...

eventually, we lost touch of one another due to various reasons...we thot we had somehow changed or rather became a totally different person...be it for the better or the worst..one that will never click back with the same old friend...

with a different mindset, we set out on separate paths to look for wat we seek as friends that will fit our now changed personality...found many...had loads of fun...felt lik a brand new person...a free man...

but y...y do i still feel so blank in there??? so lost??

we r so so wrong...it's not juz a wrong fragment of time that brought us together...not only fate is standing on our side...it's our very own perseverance n faith in each other thatbrought us tis far..

we r changing almost every sec of our life...nt only now...we c diff things...hear diff sounds...had diff thots....tis may juz b the biggest change of all that has caught our atttention...

U r U...I am I...

no matter how our mindsets change...we r still hu we r...tis has been set the moment we r born...

Jia...no matter how u change or will change...tis is all i hav to say...

it's hard to find someone that clicks wif u...one that happens to b able to endure and ensure long lasting friendship...mayb 1 in a zillion...

but...I've FOUND U!!!

we may nt agree or lik wat we do to each other at times...n tis is where tolerance faith n frankness comes in...

* XuAn * we're all coMplex humans..no anteenas...no understanding can b bridged without communication...

if we were to understand each other better n tis can continue for a whole life time...since we dun even understand ourselves at times wat's more another person...we hav to let one another know...be it repeating for million n millions of times juz to let the other gt it rite...which i somehow always mak u do dat...haha...sorry...

only thru communicationcan we noe or detect if our frequencies r adjusted at the rite channel at the rite time...:p

2006-08-10T23:56:00.000+08:00

it's 10 days apart since i blog...haha..

making money or rather working in the society indeed is hard work cum a lot of perseverance needed...

there's nth dat's free in this world...

the gd side is...u gt to meet diff kinds of ppl...esp those u can click wif...so qiao dat i happen to meet a Vegetarian rite frm the first day of work..moreover..she's e one i first spoke to..haha..met many new friends lik...auntie Irenena(took care of us throughout the days)..Anna(the gal who very scare n concern of mi using the pen knife..hahaz)...Elise(the Bedok gal who is juz nxt to my counter..heez)...Yi zuan( hu looks n tok lik a Malay but is a pure Chinese..haha)...we all had fun in each other's company...lik blood brothers...coz we endure the pain, tireness, happiness...help each other whenever we can...hahaz...hopefully we'll meet someday or another...somewhere...:p

2006-07-29T09:28:00.000+08:00

wow...

yesterday was realli lik gan chang...ahhaha..interviews whole day..

nxt wk gonna start wif the POPULAR job lo...yeah...can even shop ard when work??? ahahah...hope gt time in between for us to shop a bit...hahha..mon still hav to go down to Suntec to collect time sheet frm agent...den can start work on 2 Aug!!! hahaha...

the dental one dunno how leh...think he lik wan hire mi...but i seem to b a hard case..hahah...mayb a little troublesome to him ba...having to arrange time to cook lunch for sis n that...haiz...c how la...he say will call mi b4 Aug...hopefully he wans mi...coz he really sounds lik a great guy...i mean the dentist..ahahah...

nxt wk onwards i wouldn't b working a lot at Brainsparks...oni working on Sat 9.30 am to 1 pm...

guess it's time for mi to c the world....

2006-07-27T16:09:00.000+08:00

juz came back frm interviews...called for the job regarding Expo Book fair...haha..didn't noe it was an agency...so ow hav to run both sides b4 settled...juz went to the agent..tml morning hav to go for another wif the client...POPULAR!!!! ahahah..my fav bookstore...yeah man..so tml gg all the way to...guess where...CLEMETI!!! omg...dun even noe hw to get there...ahhaha...nvm..c the MRT dir...hahah

den tml noon 4pm gt another interview wif Dental Inn..mayb if i gt the job i shun pian gt braces??? ahhaha...den gt discounts...hahaha..

my mom very gd...though she give mi a lot of restrictions n that...make mi very hard to find jobs..but today her off day den she still bring mi to Punggol Plaza c c whether gt employment nt...den we came across Dental Inn...hahaha...thx mamee!!! luv Ya aLwAyS!!!!

ahahh...realli hope i'll gt both jobs...den no need find le...some more punggol plaza gt free bus...ahhahah...

:p

2006-07-26T13:56:00.000+08:00

noe wat?

RaiYAn has a new treat!!! hahaha...came across another brand of treats that is of non animal origin...n she simply LOVES IT...hahaaha...went to CARREFOUR at Suntec yesterday...yorgut flavour some more...yesterday gt Qing Zu..hahaha..den my Dao Qing say wat a lucky cat...coz the treat one small pack cost $4.90!!! haahaa...once a time la...at least tis way RaiYan will gt all the nutrients she need...hahahaz...:p

2006-07-26T13:38:00.000+08:00

finding a job indeed is a hard task..esp when i hav so many other factors to consider on...

guess i'm to young to b the one at the counters answering to patients' enquires which is so often the case, an auntie's job...hahaz...

called a few clinics...told them my age n they change tone...aren't u studying...i would lik dat...better den waiting juz to earn more money..not at all a meaningful thing to do...we come to tis world wif nth & we're gg away frm tis world wif nth too...so y bother earn it...

guess in tis world there're many things dat does nt have choices...u juz hav to take it or u'll wither eventually...

sianz...hopefully they'll call back soon...or i'll b out of job nxt wk...haiz...

2006-07-21T13:32:00.000+08:00

* XuAn * we're all coMplex humans..no anteenas...no understanding can b bridged without communication...

guess maintainin anything is nt as easy...once u think u noe a person well..it may nt b wat u think it is..humans r so complex beings..both mentally n physically...

haha..sounds a bit depressing...juz thot of it after seeing my friend's nick...
"don always say u all understand me cos u all don.. i'm so sick n tired of tis.. y am i on tis world??"
i guess at times i dun even understand myself..wat's more to understand another being..haha..

am i juz too lazy or wat..feel so sick of tis game...apply n wait n apply again...n nw i hav to wait again to apply for poly nxt yr...sick of it...disgusted by it...but wat can i do...

mayb..tis is a time of my life to recognise things more impt in life den juz acad....family..religion...friends...

decision making is yet another exhausting matter..it squeezes ur brain real tight...juz to peeel out all the remaing brain juice in it juz lik wat the juice squeezer will do...it makeses u so restless n helpless...stuck out of nowhere...so uncertain...so lost...nobody to depend on...oni yourself...the tired u...

2006-07-19T13:18:00.000+08:00

Horoscope: Ditch the loud parties and crowds for a while. Instead, let yourself focus inward. You have serious priorities to consider -- especially today.

sometimes, i wonder the power of horoscope readings, but they always seem to amaze mi with the accuracy of hw i feel on dat day..
before tis, i was having a 'date' wif myself...too many things to consider..

last nite, i told Brandon dat i'll b looking for another job n only coming for weekends slots frm sept onwards...didn't wan to shock him too much when it's time for mi to go..i feel so bad..he has been helping mi wherever n whenever he can these mths..but i had no choice..i need the experience out there..esp to venture out tis mths b4 i step into poly..tis is my oni chance..besides i need the money..my parents can't work forever to support all 3 of us..

haiz..

venturing out is yet another new experience..without knowing where to start...
guess everyone needs to do tis some time or the other...

2006-07-18T13:20:00.000+08:00

hahaz..

finally cut my hair..from waist length to shoulder length..though bit 舍不得, but incredibly i realise the advantages of it

i can wash my hair and go out rite away without having to wait for it to dry..
finally i can let down my hair n go shopping..haha..previously..when i let it down in the day i couldn't stand the weather..at night..ppl ard mi couldn't stand it...haha..look lik zhen zi frm the back..

walking with my hair down..i feel the breeze welcoming mito ride with them..to bask in the open air n of coz dat cheerful smile of the Sun..nothing can be better..i've gotten rid of my 三千烦脑丝..hopefully it'll mark the start of things getting smoother for mi..LMCB...

2006-07-17T14:20:00.000+08:00

~ iF u WaNnA c tHe rAiNbOw, u hAv tO sTaNd sOmE rAiN ~

2006-07-17T13:25:00.000+08:00

hAiz...

tiS sUre R mY dEpResSing mOmeNtS of mY lifE....

nothing has made me so depressed n helpless before..till tis came..

sad to say, i was rejected by both uni. even after appealing, haiz..
i was bothered by the big question 'wat willl my future be' day n night. shld i retake my As? shld i go poly? shld i juz gt a course i dun even hav the interest in the first place in the private uni? shld i gt out to the society n work purely for the money?

but there're so much to juggle wif. restrictions. lack of confidence to venture out after the long period of waiting. think it's gonna knock mi out

till now i'm still in a dilemma. i hav 3 alternatives

retake n go to poly
dun retake, go poly
apply for retake, if can gt into physiotherapy den dun retake

c my problem..sorry to my dearest friends..haha..coz i think i've poke an enormous hole in their ears by my 'naggings'..it's not dat i wan to say n say..i juz feel so troubled..i'm so afraid to take out another step..so afraid to put in the wrong foot..so afraid..

i noe i'm a person hu noes wat i lik n hw i wan my future to b. juz dat they r so many factors to consider even before i lift my foot. being the eldest i understand my parents' expectations on mi. besides my own expectations r aso wat i would lik to achieve.

poly is indeed a longer route,but at least i'll hav a diploma..the other day i was reading an article dat sort of convinced mi..9 top reasons y u shld go poly..the one that leaves mi wif a gd impression..diploma holders r completing at an equal level as degree holders..even though i'm taking the diploma way..my final destination will definitely be degree..thus i was thinking with both degree n diploma i shld flare ok in the society.moreover, with a diploma i can gt a temp job n earn some before getting my degree..dat will lighten my parents' financial burden a little..

guess wat i wan my future career will be as follows

able to interact wif ppl
wif my capability, help to mak the person better, be it both mentally n physically
if possible, work in the medical field

think tis is really my turning pt of my life. starts to look at things in a different pt of view. consider a lot for each step taken. this is where it'll affect my for the whole life. hav to do deep consideration n think n think...

life will never b the same again..i hav to grow up..time is ticking away every breath i tak..

2006-07-13T13:11:00.000+08:00

HIhi everyonE oUt tHere,

tIs ya fIrst BloG evEr...haAH..

Let'S fIRst iNtro mEsElf...

thOSe hu NoE mi...jUz a ReFreSh 4 ya..:p

AhEm..yA a cHEerFul gAl..alwaYs lik 2 lOok on tHe bRight siDe..bUt sOmeTimEs get dePressed oN cErtAin thingz..lik AcAd, rElatIOnships (nono, I'm nt toking bout BGR ya..juz in general)..i lik thE ppl Ard mi 2 B hAppIe..liK to cHaT lAmE sTuFF wIf fRienDs (ya noe hu u r la..hahaz)..liK to mAk fRienDs...the more the merrier:p..enJOys cOmPany of FrieNds...gt 'HigH' wiF fRienDs... hmm...oVeraLL..can juz say I'm a... KuaI KuaI Niu wIf a WiLD pErsOnaLity within...hahaz...

SoUnDS cOmPliCAted...haha...jUz a bRief la...so hAv to nOe mi PerSonallY den nOe wat I sAying le...heee...

hAv 2 siBlings @ hOme..1 bro 1 sis...bOth yOungeR...iLuV mY fAmilY lotz...thEY r thE oNes wHo gAve mi tHe cOmFort of LiFe...wIthOut tHem I wOn't b waT i Am tOdaY..tHouGh thEre're qUarRellS..but They're rEsOlved as tHe sUn goEs dOwn...tHe plAce thEy oCCupied in My HeaRt cAn nVr bE rEplAcEd...

dId I mEntIon mY dArLing...haha...RaIYan is mY GERGER..sHe's PrEtty...a 3 yr PeRsIan..shE waS aBandoNed at tHe sTArT of TiS yr..sHe wAs rOaming ard mY hSe n Blk fOr 5 dAyS...eVerytiME anYone aPPrOacheS thE cAt...sHe sUlks into dArknesS...howEver dat fAteful dAy...the fifth day...mY hSe was hAving pRaying sEssiOn...tang qing...20 oVer ppl...sHe wAlK bOldly aRd eVeryOne as if sHe hAd an InstInct dat tis family WilL aDoPt hEr...
mY aUnt..sHe aDopts 10 oVer abAndOned catS @ hEr hoMe...bRouGht RaiYAn home after 3 Days...as RaiYan was tHin to heR bOnes...aftEr 2 mThs...aftEr vaccinAtions n cHeck-upS...we Gt my DaRling baCk..fRm deN...iT's bEen 2 mThs...
sHe's sO cUtIE..!

afflinations...YI GUAN DAO...it'S wHerE i bElOnG...wHEre i gRoW...whEre mY liFeloNg bElIefS r...wiThOut i'LL b lIK a bIrD wiThoUt wIngS...a liVing thing wiThoUt aIR...
nO wORds cAN dEscRiBe mY gRadtitUde...

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