Tao yan zi ji de wu nai…tao yan zi ji de qi nei…tao yan zi ji bu zhong yong…ever since the incident that let mi grow…I lost my confidence…without the innocence thinking dat everything can go as u wish when u mak the effort…I felt extremely lost…

Without a stable study pathway…life feels lik an aimless lonely route…

Acadamic is not everything in life..i understand dat…perharps I’ve oni grown to a certain extent…oni seen the practical side of the world….but nt really adapted or found a way to accept it fully…haiz…hw I wish to b back at sch…

Work is never gonna b as fun as sch…I can put in a lot of effort n try to jing ye le ye (love my job)…but ppl might nt appreciate it…though I dun need ppl to confirm on my abilities…it’s juz dat ppl sometimes juz tends to find fault in u…or sometimes when u r juz a little careless it’ll b obvious…lik watever is done rite will b transparent…watever is wrong will b totally opaque…hahaha…weird description…

Actually…LMCB…the jobs dat I gt can b considered nt bad le la..till nw I didn’t gt any serious scoldings yet…hopefuly none at all…so quite gd le…

Fortunately..there’s my religion to reassure mi…being involved in HDZ (program planning com) gave mi a great sense of belonging…with this com n the religious activities I attended let mi feel dat without academic at the time being I am still of some use…I’m nt handicapped without studies for tis period of time….allows mi to change my perspective to taking tis as a short break to the forth coming studies I hav to go thru in time to come…

Without the usage of Internet daily at the tuition centre…I really miss the free surfing I can do…esp my MSN friends…haha…XJ, ZS, Ah Di…hahaha… almost everyday we chat…nw cannot chat…so sad… guess dat’s the power of computers…haha…addictive….:p

Gt so many things nt done…arrange my digital photos…deco n furnish my friendster account…republish my blog…post photos onto multiply…haiz…without a proper com…I can’t do them…guess all hav to wait…