tiS sUre R mY dEpResSing mOmeNtS of mY lifE....
nothing has made me so depressed n helpless before..till tis came..
sad to say, i was rejected by both uni. even after appealing, haiz..
i was bothered by the big question 'wat willl my future be' day n night. shld i retake my As? shld i go poly? shld i juz gt a course i dun even hav the interest in the first place in the private uni? shld i gt out to the society n work purely for the money?
but there're so much to juggle wif. restrictions. lack of confidence to venture out after the long period of waiting. think it's gonna knock mi out
till now i'm still in a dilemma. i hav 3 alternatives
- retake n go to poly
- dun retake, go poly
- apply for retake, if can gt into physiotherapy den dun retake
c my problem..sorry to my dearest friends..haha..coz i think i've poke an enormous hole in their ears by my 'naggings'..it's not dat i wan to say n say..i juz feel so troubled..i'm so afraid to take out another step..so afraid to put in the wrong foot..so afraid..
i noe i'm a person hu noes wat i lik n hw i wan my future to b. juz dat they r so many factors to consider even before i lift my foot. being the eldest i understand my parents' expectations on mi. besides my own expectations r aso wat i would lik to achieve.
poly is indeed a longer route,but at least i'll hav a diploma..the other day i was reading an article dat sort of convinced mi..9 top reasons y u shld go poly..the one that leaves mi wif a gd impression..diploma holders r completing at an equal level as degree holders..even though i'm taking the diploma way..my final destination will definitely be degree..thus i was thinking with both degree n diploma i shld flare ok in the society.moreover, with a diploma i can gt a temp job n earn some before getting my degree..dat will lighten my parents' financial burden a little..
guess wat i wan my future career will be as follows
- able to interact wif ppl
- wif my capability, help to mak the person better, be it both mentally n physically
- if possible, work in the medical field
think tis is really my turning pt of my life. starts to look at things in a different pt of view. consider a lot for each step taken. this is where it'll affect my for the whole life. hav to do deep consideration n think n think...
life will never b the same again..i hav to grow up..time is ticking away every breath i tak..
